I have this thing where if I’m bothered by something I really need my time to revamp and get my thoughts together to come up with a plan. My husband can’t take this. If something is upsetting me, it is usually quite obvious because I wear my heart on my sleeve. I can’t help it. But the problem is I can’t just get over it. I need to think and regroup and while I’m doing this Rob is following me around telling me to relax and letting me know how he can fix it. Men. They always need to fix something don’t they? Being followed around by a 6 footer while trying to gather thoughts is not helpful. You see, that actually MAKES IT WORSE. He doesn’t get that.
Where am I going? I’m getting there.
Let me tell you what sparked this last night.
The cable bill.
The same damn cable company I had before I had my angelic AT&T (who I am now in a secret fight with because they are not available in our area, secret fight will be over once they are).
So when they installed our cable they told us we would owe 147.00. Doable. I mean, annoying but doable as I didn’t have to pay any installation fees with AT&T. Well, when the tech came he never asked my husband for the check and Rob didn’t offer it. I would have, but anyway, who’s counting?
So I just received a bill from them for 333.00. Which is 50 dollars more than it should be with first months bill and the installation bill. I get really mad and I call them. We have not worked it out yet as I need to talk to a Supervisor but anyway, it ends up my head goes into a huge spiral because that is not in our budget.
Then I’m secretly mad at Rob because he doesn’t do the budget and how nice it would be to be oblivious but hello, I’m a control freak and that would never happen, and it was his idea to buy this house and if we didn’t have this house, I could write a check for 333.00 with no problemo, but actually I would not have to because I’d still be making out with AT&T. Very good kisser by the way.
I am currently in a situation that I have not been in a long time. Is it horrible? No. It’s just not COMFORTABLE. Obviously buying this house has given us a bigger house payment. Obviously that means bigger utility bills. Did we take all this into consideration? Do you know who you are dealing with? OF COURSE I DID. BUT! It doesn’t mean I’m any less uptight about our savings not being where it used to be. Part of it is also that even though we are “renting” our house out, we are still covering 240 dollars of that payment. It sounds stupid but it really is a win win. Sort of.
And because my budget plan is on my computer….ahem…at work, I can’t hop on the one at home and figure out how it’s going to work out. Even though it will work out fine, I still start shooting steam out of my ears and it goes like this:
Stacey: “Well, forget Christmas gifts, won’t be able to afford those.”
Rob: “Well, if we can’t then we can’t, no big deal.”
Stacey: “Yeah right, like that will fly!”
My Head: With YOUR Family.
Stacey: “I think we need to cancel cable, I hate them anyway and we watch too much TV.”
My head: But I really heart TV.
Rob: “Maybe we should cancel it, we should be doing productive things anyway.”
My Head: WHAT? I love TV and to me it is PRODUCTIVE.
Stacey: “And Baby Audrey is coming tomorrow and we need to get them a baby gift!”
Stacey: “We still haven’t given Matt or Jordan their wedding money!”
My Head: More out of laziness and not not having the money but I always think of it when I sort don’t have the money and then I feel rude.
Stacey: “I owe Kim 50 bucks this Friday.”
Stacey: “I still haven’t sent it for Luke’s birth certificate.”
My Head: Get off it, it’s 10 bucks. RIGHT, but I can’t remember to do it!
Do you see where I take it? To land that should not be discovered. And my poor, poor husband (almost literally).
I figured it out today, we are fine. I even sent in the paperwork and the check for Luke’s birth certificate. I’m still going to try and get Comcast to minus that 50 bucks off though. I’m going to bring Jordan’s money to the baking bee, and I’ll make Rob give Matt his money out his allowance. I wrote Kim’s check out and will give it to her Friday morning when I drop Luke off and yes, we will still have money for like food, toilet paper and Christmas gifts.
Aren’t you glad you don’t know me in real life? Oy.
3 Comments
December 4, 2008 at 10:17 am
fantastic post.. thanks for sharing
December 4, 2008 at 1:58 pm
Ugh. I so understand. I have been the same way lately. The mail has been torturing me. I got a letter from my MS med place saying I’ve been approved for a program that will save me $320 a year. Yay! Next envelope: Credit card co is raising interest rate by 70%. Boo. A few days later? MS co says they mistakenly approved me and I should disregard. Boo. Yesterday notice from insurance co that I owe $80 for bloodwork. Boo. Oh well. We too will have food and toilet paper and even Christmas presents. It’s just getting much less comfortable than it used to be. Sigh.
December 4, 2008 at 2:20 pm
Oh I totally get it. Sometimes it is hard to have all the $ responsibility but I would go crazy if it was my husband’s job. Haha, we’d probably be on the street – he’s horrible about paying bills.
It always works out but it is so stressful and overwhelming at times.